Project: Teenage Dream

Sure I can handle a conversation, Sure I may be able to make you laugh. I am the extrovert, the blabber mouth, the bipolar -- but deep inside me lives the most uptight person in the history of up-tightness.

I may never understand how I can combine these two personalities (emerging schizophrenia is a possibility though), the thing is that I am always scared out of my wits, I am scared of what people may think about me. I am the follower of the rules, the fake fan of norms of living. I always wait patiently in line, never at least raised my voice to the nonchalant, clueless customer service representative, I always pay for the extra 15 pesos for the sweet Mcdo cashier who keeps insisting on “go-large-ing” my drink. I never stayed out late, never felt the tugsh... tugsh... tugsh shattering my brain. Never failed to smile and say thanks to the Ate in the salon who made my toes bleed and pushed my ingrown too hard. I never crossed the line (few times in love) but never in life.

During my college years which ought to be my official “Party like a Rockstar” era, I chose to stay at my dorm room and watched all the dibidi dibidis the kuyas in Pedro Gil can offer me. I was sort of contented waiting for my dorm mates to come back with terrible hangover begging me to cut their heads off (which I would perform with grace if I was not the norm follower). I found contentment in hearing the sweet tales of cute boys who bought them drink, asked their number and never called (boys are just adorable). Over the years I developed my skill in giving the best bad-ass “Tiger Look” to every girl I caught smoking and well, all sorts of bait-baitan attitude.

Years of living a life like an aspiring saint or the next Cory Aquino, a major dilemma I can’t come up with the right decision, I realized that the world is turning faster and glaciers melting like popsicles in mid-day and finally… yes! the harshest truth ever... I am not getting any younger. God gave me One Life and I thank Him for his recent birthday gift for me, the fear for life unlived.

So with this random whatever nonsensical thought that have entered my mind, I now decide to start living my “Teenage Dreams” wiheee!!! It’s not like I’m trying to be Lindsay Lohan-ish or Britney Spears circa 2007 and it may be 4 years too late. I’m giving myself the green light and say what the heck I’m gonna do this!!!

In Advance, I am thanking my unbelievable friends who will accompany me and come in full make-up in their cameo role in this little project of mine. Deepest gratitude for being part of my sort of crazy-happy reckless life I will try to live in the next months before my ugh!... the horror!!!! 24^th birthday.

Well...I don’t have my to do list yet but maybe that’s the start, no plans just go with the flow and let us all see what will happen

Friends!! Come waste your time with me!!!!!!!

P.S. Put your minds at ease parents  Chill lang tayo he.. he.. he.. (Tita Dei)

My Everyday is Because of You

Because of You–Marques Houston

||Your more then the answer
For every question
I have
There's no way that I deserve you
Girl you got me so in
So high
In this love
I know it
My everyday is because of you||

Before Bruno Mars’ ultimate kilig song “Just the Way You Are”, this song made me float like the ice cream in my coke float.

The Frenemy.

 Dedicated to you Kent Martin Empe Macatangay. I hate you.

               The lost member of The Gwapings.

Whatever happened to you I don’t care!!! I don’t have time to read your article or to anything na may kaugnayan sayo (except Abby). I don’t even have time to write something about you!!!

End of Blog.

100 Years of Friendship

Happy Birthday Erika Dela Cruz!! You are my Patrick Star!!! My Diary with a Trusty Lock





I would like to sincerely dedicate my first entry to you and to your love for blogs, and all sorts of social networking sites.

Dear Peng Yu (pakyu),

I can’t remember the date and the year we became close. I’m not even sure kung close na tayo.

I don’t even know how and why, all i know is that you and I, we are MAGIC (yihee!) For soo many years you’ve become my biggest stress ball. You are my little ate, my yaya, my college boyfriend hehe… I still keep my promise to you that you’ll be my bridesmaid on my wedding day, pero sagot mo plane ticket mo papunta dito ha.

Dahil birthday mo magfofocus ako sayo: All my happy-adik-crazy moments during college are with you (except nung nagjojog pa kame ni mumay sa baywalk pag hapon)… Sobrang daming kalokohan I can’t start. I guess nagsimula yung friendship natin nung hiniram nyo ni Chelli yung laptop ko na “laptop ng bayan” medyo sumama pa loob ko dun nagsimula magdeteriorate ang health ng laptop ko pero ok na, I guess I can say that I’ve already moved on. Nung namatay sya ikaw ang naging kapalit kaya masaya na din siguro ako.

Then The Peng yu Era began. Ang araw araw nating pagkain ng 39ers, Binagoongan Fridays, R spells Forever, with you I experienced the joy of unlitxt (one word texting and hulaan ng commercial), everyday we craved for Razon’s Halo Halo then we’ll say “kakain tayo dyan pag nakaluwag tayo” haha tapos we’ll end up buying something twice the price nung Razon’s. Every week sasabihin mo magrogrocery tayo pero 6 na sachet lang naman ng creamsilk na pink, 2 choco pillows na mukang feeds ng manok ang wrapper at pink na safeguard ang bibilhin mo! Pumila pa tayo sana nag sari-sari store nalang.

On deeper level, how can I forget our “one night stands” pipilitin kita matulog sa dorm ko pero hindi naman kita kinakausap the whole time haha leche ka aga mo umaalis nag iiwan ka pa ng barya!!!

My noche buena table na pinag share-an natin ng isang libong lata ng sardinas, century tuna at pancit canton  cancer cells beyybeee!!!

Our homemade MTV’s with Chelli, Hentai nights with Angge and Kira (huy babalik mo pa ba tong CD sa kuya mo o tatapon na?)

 

Together we learned the meaning of anxiety and nervousness sa araw araw natin panonood ng “Date my Mom” at “Parental Control”… yung ninenerbyos tayo baka mapili yung matabang anak na pangit, priceless moments teh..  I can go on forever or  hindi mga 30 minutes lang pero tama na to.

Then you left me! How effing dare you! Umalis ka at sumakay ng airplane L at dahil dun hindi kita hinatid… I’m not good with goodbyes, I don’t wanna see you go… instead i closed my eyes long enough with the hope that when i open it i’ll see you coming back. (Yehesss poet!).



Eckay in Qatar, as seen from Outerspace

Without any clue how to start the ending, Ipipilit ko na ikaw ang aking Patrick Star… with you I am sensibly nonsense, but wait there’s more! You are my Star… i know you are far far away in the arabo land but all I need is to look up and you’re there, you sparkled the brightest during my darkest hours… thank you J and I’ll be your spongebob… I’ll absorb everything hehe yun lang.  For two people who never called each other best-friends, we’re more than best friends, more than sisters, no-tags-can-describe-us friend…

WE ARE THE UNTAGGABLES!

—- Ugghhhh! Nonsense.