Sure I can handle a conversation, Sure I may be able to make you laugh. I am the extrovert, the blabber mouth, the bipolar -- but deep inside me lives the most uptight person in the history of up-tightness.
I may never understand how I can combine these two personalities (emerging schizophrenia is a possibility though), the thing is that I am always scared out of my wits, I am scared of what people may think about me. I am the follower of the rules, the fake fan of norms of living. I always wait patiently in line, never at least raised my voice to the nonchalant, clueless customer service representative, I always pay for the extra 15 pesos for the sweet Mcdo cashier who keeps insisting on “go-large-ing” my drink. I never stayed out late, never felt the tugsh... tugsh... tugsh shattering my brain. Never failed to smile and say thanks to the Ate in the salon who made my toes bleed and pushed my ingrown too hard. I never crossed the line (few times in love) but never in life.
During my college years which ought to be my official “Party like a Rockstar” era, I chose to stay at my dorm room and watched all the dibidi dibidis the kuyas in Pedro Gil can offer me. I was sort of contented waiting for my dorm mates to come back with terrible hangover begging me to cut their heads off (which I would perform with grace if I was not the norm follower). I found contentment in hearing the sweet tales of cute boys who bought them drink, asked their number and never called (boys are just adorable). Over the years I developed my skill in giving the best bad-ass “Tiger Look” to every girl I caught smoking and well, all sorts of bait-baitan attitude.
Years of living a life like an aspiring saint or the next Cory Aquino, a major dilemma I can’t come up with the right decision, I realized that the world is turning faster and glaciers melting like popsicles in mid-day and finally… yes! the harshest truth ever... I am not getting any younger. God gave me One Life and I thank Him for his recent birthday gift for me, the fear for life unlived.
So with this random whatever nonsensical thought that have entered my mind, I now decide to start living my “Teenage Dreams” wiheee!!! It’s not like I’m trying to be Lindsay Lohan-ish or Britney Spears circa 2007 and it may be 4 years too late. I’m giving myself the green light and say what the heck I’m gonna do this!!!
In Advance, I am thanking my unbelievable friends who will accompany me and come in full make-up in their cameo role in this little project of mine. Deepest gratitude for being part of my sort of crazy-happy reckless life I will try to live in the next months before my ugh!... the horror!!!! 24th birthday.
During my college years which ought to be my official “Party like a Rockstar” era, I chose to stay at my dorm room and watched all the dibidi dibidis the kuyas in Pedro Gil can offer me. I was sort of contented waiting for my dorm mates to come back with terrible hangover begging me to cut their heads off (which I would perform with grace if I was not the norm follower). I found contentment in hearing the sweet tales of cute boys who bought them drink, asked their number and never called (boys are just adorable). Over the years I developed my skill in giving the best bad-ass “Tiger Look” to every girl I caught smoking and well, all sorts of bait-baitan attitude.
Years of living a life like an aspiring saint or the next Cory Aquino, a major dilemma I can’t come up with the right decision, I realized that the world is turning faster and glaciers melting like popsicles in mid-day and finally… yes! the harshest truth ever... I am not getting any younger. God gave me One Life and I thank Him for his recent birthday gift for me, the fear for life unlived.
So with this random whatever nonsensical thought that have entered my mind, I now decide to start living my “Teenage Dreams” wiheee!!! It’s not like I’m trying to be Lindsay Lohan-ish or Britney Spears circa 2007 and it may be 4 years too late. I’m giving myself the green light and say what the heck I’m gonna do this!!!
In Advance, I am thanking my unbelievable friends who will accompany me and come in full make-up in their cameo role in this little project of mine. Deepest gratitude for being part of my sort of crazy-happy reckless life I will try to live in the next months before my ugh!... the horror!!!! 24th birthday.
Well...I don’t have my to do list yet but maybe that’s the start, no plans just go with the flow and let us all see what will happen
Friends!! Come waste your time with me!!!!!!!
P.S. Put your minds at ease parents Chill lang tayo he.. he.. he.. (Tita Dei) 
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